Soliloquy

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our
deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light,
not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not
serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that
other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine
as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as
we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our
presence automatically liberates others.

hey, i thought of you today

i thought that i should tell you

how much i miss you

remember what you used to say

"friends forever, i hope that we’ll remain this way.. "

all this time, i’ve been thinkin’ bout the way we used to play

you’re everywhere i go i can’t escape you,

when i close my eyes i see you

even in my sleep i dream of you

i miss you

can we put the blame on the changing times?

where have all the years gone by?

so fast, so young,

so sure that this will never end

i’ll always stand by you, my friend

but forever was just too long..

this
separation is killing me

you
say I should’ve thought that

before
I did what I have done

so
easier to put the blame on you

I
should’ve looked inside of me

But
it’s all in vain as I try to explain

She
pulls away…

We
could’ve been more

Can
we ever have these feelings again?

We
should’ve been more

Maybe
in time we’ll realize that maybe

Fate
reveals the remedies

Making
it feel like it will be like the first time.

Still
the vision on my mind

Cuz
now I realize it’s

so
damn hard to give you up

no
way out of this hole

can
we ever have us back again?

let’s
not start and put the blame part away

can
you honestly say

you
can see me with another one?

Another
one, another chance with you

I
want more, I want more, I want more.

Regretting
it now

Can
fate reveal to me?

The
questions to why?

Reveal
the remedy.

Could’ve
been more

Should’ve
been more

Maybe
in time we’ll realize that maybe

That
fate reveals the remedies

making
it feel like it will be like the first time

just like the first time.

Close your eyes,
  come fly away with me
  i’ll take you to places that you’ve
  never seen, never been before..
  i know why,
  all the things you’ve been through
  and all the things that hurt you
  are eating you alive..

Right here,
  with you
  is where i wanna be
  is where i oughtta be
  wipe your tears away
  coz right now..
  time is on our side
  time is on our side

come live another
  day..

close your eyes
  and i’ll sing you a lullabye
  nothing to fear coz i’m right here by your side..

close your eyes,
  come fly away with me
  i’ll take you to places that you’ve never seen
  never been before…

Nahihirapan na ang
  aking isip
  nauubusan na ng sasabihin sa iyo..
  nanlalamig na ba ang pag-ibig mo sa ‘kin..
  giliw..

nalilito ako, nais
  kong sagipin ang ating
  nalulunod na pag-ibig
  nguni’t handa akong palayain ka
  kung ito ang ‘yong hiling
  gaano man kasakit sa akin
  ibibgay sa yo
  ang tanging pakiusap lang
  wag mo akong kalimutan..

kay rami nang nagdaan
  na pagsubok sa ting pag-ibig
  kakayanin pa kayang mabawi pa
  ang mga nasabi nang masasakit na salita..

kung ito ang yong
  hiling
  gaano man kasakit sa akin..
  ibibigay sa yo..

nanlalamig na bang
  pag-ibig mo?

san ko hahanapin ang ating nakaraan?
ala-alang kay tamis at kay saya.
ang aking puso’y umaasa.. nananabik sa yo
di mapigil ang damdaming.. nababaliw sa yo..

aaminin
ko,
lahat ng ito,
ay inaalay.. lamang sa iyo
aaminin ko,
na ang buhay ko,
ay walang kulay kung di dahil sa yo
aaminin ko,
tanging ngalan mo,
ang sinisigaw ng damdamin ko..
maghihintay ako…

patawad,
  di ko maikukubli..
  di inaasahang mayro’ng katapusan
  sana’y iningatan ang pagkakataon
  na noo’y tayo lamang,
  at ang bawa’t sandali ay
  atin lamang.. ito’y alay ko sa yo..

  di makapaniwalang.. tapos na
  ang lahat sa atin,
  at di ka na.. magiging akin
  kahit na.. andito pa rin ako…
  umaasa…

  you with the marble eyes
  fragile with porcelain bones
  you look at the stars and you wonder why
  are you as hungry as i?
  (yesterday’s news but still new to me)
 
  i can’t see me
  or someone i used to be
  i can’t see you now
  or someone who used to be you
  are you someone new?
  are you someone i used to know?
  have you been there before?
  have you seen me before?
 
  when was the last time you cried
  i think it was centuries ago
  a stake through the heart
  and sunrise will keep you away

This
bottle is bringing me down

No
comfort for me in this town

All
the faith in these eyes

Lost
the glow and just dies

I
pray, redeem this heart

And
be here now.

In
this war

The
tears in my eyes says it all

Put
all of my faith in you now

When
all of the world says

We
wont make it through

We’ll
battle the world.

I
feel so alone

The
situation’s desperate

Until
I’ve found my life again I drown

So
save me now

Breathe
new life in me…

I
greet the morning sky

The
sun dries tears in my eyes

Awaken
this sleeping heart of mine

And
be here now…

Awaken
this heart.

There is something spriritual with winter.  The quiet falling of snow on the ground, the leafless branches of trees, the tranquility of being alone and the peace of solitude.  They say winter is synonymous with death…is it?

hindi maipinta ang aking nadarama
hindi maalis ang tamis ng mga tingin
mga tinginan
mag aalas-dose na pala
ayoko pang kumawala
sa higpit ng mga yakap mo, giliw ko

kung panaginip lamang ito
ayoko na sanang magising
tila isang paraiso tuwing ika’y kapiling

Sa uulitin muli
makapiling ka sa bawat sandali
hindi maitatanggi langit
sayong mga mata at mga labi
sana noon pa naranasan
Hinding-hindi ipagpapalit
kailan man

naubusan na ng mga salita
nag-uusap na lang ang mga mata
nakakamangha
nagtitrip hanggang umaga
saan man mapunta kuntento na
basta’t kasama ka
basta’t kasama ka

kung panaginip lamang ito
ayoko na sanang magising
tila isang paraiso tuwing ika’y kapiling..

- para kay Sheila kong irog